Sad journal do not read if you are currently happy

I will begin first with an empty space for my watch feed, so they can choose to read it later instead of beginning to read it automatically...






























This Tuesday, 24/02/2015,  I heard that one of my colleagues had passed away,
A young one, at a mere 24 years old.
He has died of his own choice.  I know no more information then that.

I considered not making this journal, after all, he was just a colleague, not someone of my family..
But he's been haunting me quite a lot.
He was such a happy looking man. He looked so full of life, wanting to learn as much as possible,
wanting to know it all.
I only worked with him on Fridays,so you might think it wasn't much, but consider then that I have been doing so for a t least 4 years.
four years of his questions about how they do it. (For example, "how do they know how many whales are in the sea?"  
our answer "They shot a laser into the ocean, and that laser then counted all the whales. and send its findings to a pc" )
and long discussions about it, that could last for weeks.

I'm quite in shock, I am in disbelief.
Today (Friday 27/02/2015)  I hoped he would just walk in and tell everyone there had been a mistake
I didn't find him, I found his mourning card.
His funeral will be tomorrow, and I will be attending

I will not reply to any condolences for  I might not know how to react to them.
Thank you in advance.